I am here to express my anxiety and I miss typing.
Today was the worst day of the month. K maybe I should phrase it this way- April is the worst month. I feel like swearing but no.
(!) Language papers are over and I feel that I am going haywire,already. I could feel the competition in the air even before Monday's paper commenced. I screw up my summary for English and I predict that I am not going to do well for MYE. :( The weirdest thing that happened was I couldn't even concentrate during Chinese P2 and my mind was Everywhere. I didn't even take it seriously k. I am damn unhappy with myself, like where did my motivation go to!!!!!! I want time. Hahah I've been saying this for many times. I rmbr telling myself- It's never too early and now? I.Am.Not.Even.Prepared.For.Any.Exam. I know I'm not the only one feeling like this but just let me type.. Anyway that's one paper down and as usual,Time flies.
Well, tmrw's Mathematics P1 & Social Studies(!!). Haha spell: Doom
More and more talks abt the future I hear. The competition out there is fierce boy. It frightens me after all that I was told. I MISS MY DAD. I had a chat with him earlier and thank God I did. He encourages me but, I am still rather lost discouraged and whatnot. My aunt is discouraging me as well. You know why? Just because her nephews are top scorers (in RI ok) and have secured places in JC AND need not take 'O's. I almost burst(!) but I got to swallow it down however.
Studies is not the only matter. I need to ease my mind and I need a counsellor now (ok this part I'm kidding).
On a lighter note,check out the stars at night. Bright and beautiful,that is. You're lucky if you get to see them! :)
God bless me.
I WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE HERE K BYE
Edit:
Right now,the only thing to do is to set aside any negative thoughts
